I Am In Love

Thanks to my good friend Joey (who I miss so so much) for posting this on my Facebook wall.......

The Day That Shall Live in Infamy

Last weekend, we were in Toys R Us picking out a present for my friend's daughter's birthday. I sighed loudly that Jovie still didn't have a doll. She had stuffed toys, but not a doll. Not the ultimate in declaring your child a true female. For some reason, it bothered me that she didn't have a doll to coo over. So we went about finding her her first doll.

Now, why did this throw me into a complete tailspin? Because there are no multi-racial dolls! The dolls are White, Black, Hispanic, or Asian. The hispanic doll came the closest, but that wasn't a true representation of who she was. If we got her the white doll, would she identify herself as white first? If we got her the black doll, would she identify herself as black first? Would she shun one of her races? Would she think she wasn't pretty enough because there are no dolls made in her color?

All of this went through my head as I had an anxiety attack in the aisles, running back and forth between the dolls. Jovie happily tried to pull toys off the shelf and Ryan kept talking about getting her a Cabbage Patch Doll. See, we both had Cabbage Patch Dolls growing up, so this was the perfect solution. Until it WASN'T the perfect solution; there were races of those little bastards too!

We ended up settling on the Black Cabbage Patch that came with 2 dolls; one little sister and one big sister. The little one has a little tuft of nappy curly hair on it's head and the bigger one has curly black hair. We were so proud of our purchase and when Ryan spent 30 minutes trying to wrangle them from the packaging, with Jovie wide-eyed in excitement, we were sure she'd be proud of her parents. She grabbed the dolls and flung them before toddling off to the next activity.

So yes....her attention span is still short, but she does play with them. Once she even coo'ed at the baby. I still worry about how she'll identify herself in the future or if she'll get teased in school. I worry about all those identity crises I read about for multi-racial kids and how that can affect them. All I can do is treat her like the beautiful little girl she is and keep reinforcing that. And try to keep her from biting the nose off her Cabbage Patch.

Leap Year Post

In all honesty, I only really wanted to post something to say that I posted something on February 29th. Nothing more, nothing less. So here it is. :)

Although, I did feel like since it IS the extra day, that today would either be exceptionally awful or exceptionally great. Neither has happened so far, so I suppose that could be a good thing. I would prefer exceptionally great though.

Happy Leap Year.

Gone But Not Forgotten

I've been sick the last few weeks and I have no clue what the hell is wrong with me. I've been back and forth to the doctor. I'm going again this Friday. All I know is that I'm sooo tired. I have some things to post so give me time and they shall come.

Otherwise, we're all just surviving this Texas life. Maybe that's the problem. Either way, I want to be on the road to healthy ya'll! It will happen. Not sure when, but it will happen.

What I Spend My Day Doing

Wanted: A Vacation

It appears as if the true meaning of vacation is lost. When I stated today that I needed a vacation, it was answered with a "Why's that?" Vacations help you recharge, breathe some new air, gain new perspective at times. When I'm then met with no real response, it tells me this:

America, what is going on? I value hard work and success, but I also value my health and well-being. I think lately I've been  forgetting what it feels like to be AND feel truly healthy. Should I feel that tied to my career that I can't do anything for myself or with my family?

Having Jovie made me realize that above all, my family comes first. My selfish days are done and now I'm accountable. That means bringing my A-game to my daughter and husband ALL THE TIME and I have not been doing that. Time to make some changes. LEEEEEEEGO!!